Fear of Not Being Original

The other night Leigh and Rico told me that JoshBear Sojourner was looking for panels for a AIDS quilt. Well I guess it wouldn't really be a quilt since it could be 3-D. I wanted to make a panel but I didn't have any good ideas. I ended up making a real dumb panel and now I don't think it's really very good. It is just a black box with a red ribbon. I should have thought more before I did it. Maybe I will get back and do a better one.

It is always funny when you make something and it is shown to other people. When ever you make something creative either one of two things occur: It is really cool and then you feel self conscious that people may think you are going to be an egotist for being "creative", OR it is really boring or stupid and then you feel self conscious that people will feel sorry for you because the thing you made is lame.

It is really strange to make things and then have other human beings look at them. I guess we do that in everything we do and artists are just the extreme of "thing" makers. Some people get self conscious about what they wear and what their hair looks like and so on because everything we do is sort of like art.

Well I haven't posted for a while, been too busy with some RL stuff. I put a picture on this post of me with hawk wings because I just felt like flying. They are some freebie wings I got somewhere, I think my friend Franz gave them to me.

I don't know if anyone has people they know outside of SL who think we are all a bunch of wackos. People say "You should not be playing games but should be living REAL life." I don't know what to think because I like all my friends here. Maybe we are all a couple bricks shy of a load as they used to say. Well anyway on Sunday I have an SL wedding to go to. I will post more on that later. I hope everyone is doing well.